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Wednesday, April 21, 2010

New Look!



I am so happy to see how much clearer things are to me. I feel like Erykah Badu, I have stripped off my blind eyes and I have evolved into this beautiful woman that can see.
Funny how as a mother we put our needs last. Is it really sacrificing when you give so freely to your children. I have never given a second 'glance' at what I gave up to provide for my children. I joke about trading them for Ham or Tuna Sandwiches but at the end of the day, I wouldn't trade them for my life. When they are all quiet and not crying, fussing, fighting, complaining, nagging, begging, ignoring or pouting; I can remember that kiss that they gave me before bedtime. I remember them saying you lost weight when in fact I gained 5 pounds. They say you are the most beautiful and bestest mom in the world, right after I yelled at them about lights out. How they held my face in thier little hand and made me look them in the eyes as they said I love you Mommy. I missed you Mommy. Oh how all the little things no longer matter. Like getting glasses which I haven't done for myself in 3 yrs. I love being able to see but I think I saw things a little differently. I saw the love and affection in my children without new glasses.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Hello World!

I woke up this morning and I heard from Him. He touched me ever so gently with the rays of sunshine in His fingers. He said everything was gonna be alright for it was morning. Joy comes in the morning so go out and tell them how Great I AM!! I found comfort in the security of his hands. His Mercy runs endlessly for me. I am His humble servant but I am only man and He is my Savior. He has never forsaken me. He was in the Doctor's office when they said I was developing Gluacoma. His Mercy said No! He was in the court room when they wanted to give me Jail time.. His Mercy said No! He turned my cheek when I was mad at my family. His Mercy Said No!! Thank you Father for loving me.